Uhmm well okay yeah, I'm gonna apologize for so much thinks (mostly to myself this time)

- I'm kinda depressed lately, hating myself for hating myself so much. Is kinda hard to follow, Ikno
- And so yes, I got lazy too. I drew lotsa things but my piles of sketches are beginning to become so big, I'm scared of coloring em all. I don't even feel like grabbing my black marker and inking them. So it'll probably take another few months for me to do something... WITH SENSE.
- Kay I have no idea why I'm writing this, apparently coz I wanned my previous journal to leave its place.
- I feel like running around in my room (Have I already said I'm kinda insane down here (in the Netherlands/my head)?)
- I'm now smashing my head against the keyboard
- And now I'm gonna post this journal before decide to delete it. Have fun reading it.

ktnxbai

xxx, Jildou

- I'm kinda running around with a broken heart last months. It hurts. Like very much. I think I deserved it, so it only makes me happier (wish it did). Baaaiz

Stole this from ~glarionac (who's awsum yaay! )

1. Pick which OC you are going to answer this in
2. Answer all the questions Truthfully. Make it interesting!
3. Tag at least 5 others when finished!

Name: Damian (surname unknown)

Birthdate: 03-09(-2549)

Birth Place: was born when his parents were on their way back home from a holiday trip

Current Location: the SWW1-Quarter

Eye Color: light blue

Hair Color: black

Height: 182 cm

Weight: 71 kg

Tattoos: none

Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Fy

Overused Phrase: "Whatever"

FAVORITES

Food: only eats food because it's necessary to survive

Candy: chewing gum (without a doubt)

Number: 24

Color: black

Animal: Fi'ir (some kinda wolf)

Drink: anything that's too strong for others

Alcoholic Drink: see above

Bagel: -

Letter: F

Body Part on Opposite sex: probably everything

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: "Whatever."

McDonalds or Burger King: "Is Fy allowed to come with me?"

Strawberry or Watermelon: "Whatever."

Hot tea or Iced tea: "Iced tea." (Loves everything that's cold, strong and bubbly)

Chocolate or Vanilla: "Sugar is for losers."

Hot Chocolate or Coffee: "Gross." <blank face>

Kiss or Hug: <refuses to reply> (Hates it when people - except for Fy of course - touch him)

Dog or Cat: "Cat." (Fy's favorite animals are cats)

Rap or Punk: "I can only appreciate REAL music."

Summer or Winter: "Winter."

Sad Movies or Funny Movies: "Funny movies if someone in it dies tragically. And sad movies when... well yeah, if someone in it dies tragically." (Is kinda violent)

Love or Money: "I can live without both of them." (Always tells Fy he will love and follow her forever, even when she dies)

YOUR...

Bedtime: "When I feel like it." (Somewhere around 2 o'clock AM)

Most Missed Memory: "My sisters Ylsa and Doratha pampering me, Fy swimming with Nagalas (look like whales) and the reunion with my cousin Tilane."

Best physical feature: "No idea." (Annoyingly modest; can do almost everything except for being friendly to other people but Fy)

First Thought Waking Up: "This day will probably suck like all of them." (Doesn't mean this)

Goal for this year: "To keep Fy alive."

Best Friends: "Fy, Migar-Liamm and Fero-Hirr I guess." (Had another best friend long ago named Hauei, but Hauei fell in love with Fy when Damian was in jail for a few weeks, so Fy and Damian simply told him to go)

Weakness: "Would that be of any interest to you?" <almost drools when looking at Fy>

Fears: "Loosing Fy, furthermore... nothing."

Heritage: "My father was a florist and my mother tailoress. My sister Ylsa was a succesfull hacker who went to the Hacker's Clan (company where only the most skilled persons are accepted) and my other sister Doratha would follow in Ylsa's steps. Unfortunately they were all slaughtered by my employer Espera, for whom I've worked a few months after being released from prison (Was charged for killing his parents and sisters). Espera wanted me to kill Fy, the daughter of the one who put her father in jail, and that's how I met her."

Longest relationship: "2 years." (With Fy of course)

HAVE YOU...

Ever Drank: "If it suits me."

Ever Smoked: "Same here."

Pot: "Nah, it just stinks."

Ever been Drunk: "No." (Is very good at keeping his self-control)

Ever been beaten up: "Almost." (Espera took her revenge, but Fy saved him just in time)

Ever beaten someone up: "Several times." (Has killed more than 50 people by order of Espera)

Ever Shoplifted: "More than once." <still motionless>

Ever Skinny Dipped: "In our jacuzzi."

Ever Kissed Opposite sex: "None of your business." (Most popular guy of the quarter)

Ever Kissed Same Sex: "Oh my God no."

Been Dumped Lately: "Fy dumped me once... That's when I kinda lost my mind for a few days. She couldn't hold it out for long of course." (Killed 12 people in 2 days back then)

IN A GUY/GIRL

Favorite Eye Color: "Blue." <is describing Fy right now>

Favorite Hair Color: "Black."

Short or Long: "Length of her hair? In that case long."

Height: "Shorter than me."

Style: "Doesn't make sense."

Looks or Personality: "I would never love anyone who's just gorgeous or just very kind. I kinda hate naive people though."

Hot or Cute: "Both."

Drugs and Alcohol: "Those are just ways to hide who you really are."

Muscular or Really Skinny: "Somewhere between those."

RANDOMS

Number of Regrets in the Past: "A lot... too many to count."

What country/world do you want to visit: "Whatever."

How do you want to die: "Never if Fy is still living."

Been to the Mall Lately: "Fy and I use to let it be delivered."

Do you like Thunderstorms: "Kinda!"

Get along with your Parents: "Think they would hate me if they'd still live."

Health Freak: "..." (Always looks awesome, just because he doesn't eat that much and trains a lot)

Do you think your attractive: "I guess." (Gets tons of loveletters on Valentine's Day)

Want to go to college: "The Hunter's Institute is good enough, I think."

Do you smoke: "Haven't I been asked this before?"

Do you drink: "Dubble déjà-vu!"

Shower daily: "When there is a shower near."

Been in love: "Once."

Do you sing: "Only to Fy." (Sings a lot since he's dating her, but never lets another hear it indeed)

Want to get married: "I don't want to be so bound to another." (Is engaged to Fy, but they're not planning to marry)

Do you want children: "As long as my child won't be as horrible as me." (Fy already is pregnant)

Hate anyone: "Espera VERY much. Furthermore there're too many persons to mention right now."

Anything more to say: "Don't think I did this for fun."

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So well, this was the interview with my favorite OC Damian. I tag everyone who wants to be tagged. Just imagine I sent you a personal message

-xxx-

First of all:

Commissions

Commissions I've finished:
[x] Commission ~bionicman2 ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~Simplistische ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~glarionac ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~Natto-gohan --- > [link]
[x] Commission Lisa: ---> [link]
[x] Commission Lisa: ---> [link]
[x] Commission =dukeofsweethotness ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~glarionac ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~Simplistische ---> [link]
[x] Commission ~endzi-z --> [link]
[x] Commission ~Grisom130292 --> [link]

Commissions I've started with:
[>] Commission ~Chaja-girl

Commissions I haven't began with (mainly I've already done some research ):

~

And then, if you haven't stuck somewhere above... You can still ask me for new commissions .

Oh and... Plz forget it if I wrote the word 'commission' wrong the whole time. I just thought that there is a possibility it's with one 's' instead of 2. If so - I'm sooooo sorry!!

Furthermore: I'm really busy with school now, next week I have an examweek. But after that I have holiday as well, so then I hopefully can finish all commissions ( stupid 's' ).

July the 18th I will go to Italy, I'm so happy!! I fell in love with Italy since... I realized I've never been to it in my whole life XD

For all the people who ed me and all those who used or hated me: I'm gonna say goodbye to you - whether I like you or not I'm really turning crazy!! (again!!! ) so I hope you all will forget me fast when my brain explodes and I'll never talk to you again.

I'm (sêhr) inspirationless. Yesterday my name was "Jildou", now it's "Inspirationless". I mean it!! Every hour I want to draw something but when I have a pencil in my hand and a sketchbook on my knees... my head is just empty. My friends tell me: "Just draw something", but it's really not that easy!!

I don't wanna bother you or so... But I'd like if you asked me for a commish . I'm desperate and hopeless. Thanx for reading this.

Commissions I finished:
[x] Commission ~bionicman2 --->[link]
[x] Commission ~Simplistische --->[link]
[x] Commission *glarionac --->[link]
[x] Commission ~Natto-gohan --- >[link]
[x] Commission Lisa: ---> [link]
[x] Commission Lisa: ---> [link]
[x] Commission =dukeofsweethotness ---> [link]
[x] Commission *glarionac ---> [link]

Commissions I'm started with:
[>] Commission ~Grisom130292
[>] Commission ~endzi-z

Commissions I haven't began with (mainly I've already done some research ):
[] Commission ~Chaja-girl
[] Commission ~Simplistische

x = finished
> = half/only lineart

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I'm sorry, guys I know I started very late with the last commishes, but now I finally put myself to work. I just didn't feel like starting with it, especially the drawings I'd decided to color by computer. But I thought that, if I didn't want to start with digitalise it, I had to simply color it by hand, like somewhere a few ages ago . So don't be worried or angry plz

K First: I all want to thank u (again) for my very muchhie pageviews XD. I've counted them and I discovered that every night I go to sleep, at least 10 people're going to look on my page. I'm just so proud!!!

Furthermore: I'm busy with a tutorial for coloring with pencils on my way, cuz one of my good friends asked me to. So... don't be worried about me because I've long time no posted new drawings

And last but not least: go take a look at the page of my good friends:

My really good
friend panire:


And a boy I just met
named dragon-pinguin:


0fcrs I've MORE friends but these are the ones I think deserve more pageviews...

-- Jildou